2012

Wow. It’s been nearly one year since my last blog entry. Cyanide has been scolding me for my lack of updates. I guess I was pretty disillusioned by work and too anhedonic to even feel like blogging.

Anyway, before I ramble on, Happy New Year 2012!! As always, I did not keep to my new year resolutions so I will just carry forward the same ones again…with a few modifications and additions.

1. Read the bible everyday.
2. Eat more vegetables and drink more water.
3. Worry less.
4. Exercise.
5. Blog more.

Ok. That’s it for this years resolutions. See you all same time next year. Ok, ok. I will try to blog more often. Hopefully this year will bring more inspiration to my writings especially since I have had a drastic change in my career path aim direction plans. I will eleborate more about it in another post if memory permits.

Adios for now. Until next time…

Book Club 2010

It has been a good ‘reading’ year for me. I managed to read a little over 1 novel a month. Good improvement from the year 2009, in which I only managed to read 9 books. Here is the list of books I’ve read throughout the year 2010…

1. The Lovely Bones by Alice Seabold

2. Harvesting the Heart by Jodi Picoult

3. If You Could See Me Now by Cecelia Aherns

4. Ford County Stories by John Grisham

5. The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks

6. First They Killed My Father: A Daughter of Cambodia Remembers by Loung Ung

7. Lucky Child: A Daughter of Cambodia Reunites with the Sister She Left Behind by Loung Ung

8. One for My Baby by Tony Parson

9. Mercy by Jodi Picoult

10. Dear John by Nicholas Sparks

11. Keeping Faith by Jodi Picoult

12. You Gotta Have Balls by Lily Brett

13. The Tenth Circle by Jodi Picoult

14. Sputnik Sweetheart by Haruki Murakami

Happy New Year 2011

Alright. I know it’s already more than 2 weeks past the new year but I’ve been busy, OK? Then again, I think it was more of denial. Denial that another year has whizzed by and it is once again the time to reflect on the past year and plan for the new year ahead. As CN- mentioned to me recently, perhaps we have grown older and realised that some things just cannot be changed no matter how hard we try.

2010 has been a year of ups and downs. In fact, every year has been a year of ups and downs. How cliche can I get. However, here are a few things I’ve learnt over the past 1 year…

1. Shit still happens all the time.

2. It is really difficult to get out of bed every morning if you hate the job you are currently doing.

3. It never hurts to be nice to people.

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A few things I’ve started to realise are…

1. I’m sick of sleeping over at the hospital when I’d rather be sleeping in my own comfy bed.

2. I hate it when my phone rings every 5 minutes when I’m on-call.

3. I think that I need to find a field where I no longer have to do active calls.

In summary, I found that I was majorly burnt out by work, and have lost all interest in the specialty which I once was so passionate about. The main reasons for the burnout are the constant lack of manpower, complicated work politics as well as the crazy load of patients in my current workplace. Therefore in this new year, I aim to either change my work environment, or gain superhuman strength to make work at my current workplace a piece of cake. Hah.

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I shall not even bother to analyze if I had fulfilled last year’s resolutions as I’m sure the answer is all too obvious. So let’s just move on to the next part.

And now, drumrolls please…

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS FOR THE YEAR 2011

1. Continue to eat more vegetables and drink more water to avoid constipation.

2. Return to God, to pray and read the Bible everyday.

3. To be less messy and tidy my desk/room/house more often.

GO 2011!

Lack of updates

It seems that since we started working, CN- and I have been blogging a lot less. Perhaps that applies especially to me, who hardly blogged the past 1 year. I guess it’s mainly due to being tired and overwork, therefore lacking any enthusiasm whatsoever to write anything witty or at least remotely interesting. After all, who wants to blog or read about work and stress all year round? Or maybe it’s just my brain cells undergoing apoptosis and becoming a little more dull each day. Sigh.

Anyway, time flies and it’s now the end of the year again. Time to at least write some crap to mark the end of yet another year. I’m finally on a short Christmas break, which was granted rather grudgingly by my workplace. Nevertheless, I am taking the opportunity to rest and hopefully recharge from being burnt out. It would also be a good time to start considering my next career path as I have decided that I need to go looking for new cheese. Can’t keep whining about people moving my cheese and expecting new ones to just drop from the sky.

Well, looks like this is going to be yet another boring post, beating around the bush about nothing in particular. But at least I can tell CN-, hey I blogged! Muahahaha.

Blessed Christmas and a Happy New Year to everyone!

Yellow sponge at work

Do you spot a yellow sponge with square pants in these pictures?

Steam coming out from ears…

The title describes how I feel right now. I am damn pissed with certain people and circumstances. It’s amazing how some people are so full of themselves. They think the whole damn world revolves around them, their issues and their happiness.

Here’s a quote from Charlotte of Private Practice which I like.

“So this is the problem with you. You think everything in the world is about you. Sorry, not about you.”

Come on. Everyone has their problems too. You think just because they don’t complain it to the whole world means they are happily cruising through life in cloud nine? Just because you actively voice your complains and dissatisfactions doesn’t make your problem bigger or more serious than others.

Then again, why the heck am I letting this get to me. I should just stay chilled and not get so worked up about this sort of people. Because obviously they don’t give a rat’s ass about how other people feel and neither do they deserve to be fretted about. Total waste of mental and physical energy.

I’ll end with this quote from dunno where…

“Life is too short to stress yourself with people who don’t even deserve to be an issue in your life.”

Book Club – Mid Year Review

In my attempt to reduce the amount of time spent on FB, watching videos, anime and serials, I decided to rekindle my love for reading. This plan kick-started sometime middle of last year and so far, I have managed to keep it up, to a certain extent.

Just for self-satisfaction, I would like to list the books I’ve read so far as a continuation from those listed in this post.

2009

1. Playing for Pizza by John Grisham

2. Misconceptions by Terry McGee

3. My Sister’s Keeper by Jodi Picoult

4. The Pact by Jodi Picoult

5. Nineteen Minutes by Jodi Picoult

6. Where Rainbow Ends by Cecelia Aherns

7. Salem Falls by Jodi Picoult

8. Handle with Care by Jodi Picoult

9. The Time Traveller’s Wife by Audrey Niffenegger

2010

1. The Lovely Bones by Alice Seabold

2. Harvesting the Heart by Jodi Picoult

3. If You Could See Me Now by Cecelia Aherns

4. Ford County Stories by John Grisham

5. The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks

6. First They Killed My Father: A Daughter of Cambodia Remembers by Loung Ung

7. Lucky Child: A Daughter of Cambodia Reunites with the Sister She Left Behind by Loung Ung

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So I guess I’ve been able to read an average of 1 book per month. Not bad indeed. Heh.

Last wishes…

Usually if a patient is having difficulty breathing or severely ill, we sometimes ask them to fast in case we need to put them in a coma and put a tube down their throat to help with breathing. This is not to be cruel, but because we don’t want them to vomit food and gunk when we’re trying to put the breathing tube in, causing those stuff to get into the lungs, which will definitely worsen their condition.

Therefore, when an ill patient desperately requests for a drink or some food, sometimes we get torn whether to allow them to do so or not. My specialist once told me that sometimes you can actually sense that it’s the patient’s last wish, so she sometimes allows them to take a few sips of plain water before inducing a coma in them. Thus, if they were not to make it, at least they had their last wish granted.

Just few days ago, I had this very resilient old guy who had a heart attack and needed 3 types of medication to keep his heart pumping and to keep him alive. He was very much consious and wanted to go home to have a good meal. He claim that the food the hospital served sucked and he insisted on going home. After trying hard to convince him to stay, his family decided to grant his last wish and they took him home. It was rather sad when it was time to take off those medications that were sustaining his life so that he could leave. I sincerely hope that he made it home safely to enjoy his home-cooked meal.

Venting

Damn vie de travail. Tellement occupé tous les jours. Difficile à obtenir un congé. Perpétuellement en raison sommeil pour être sur appel si souvent. Chaque week-end également à travailler. Ce n’est pas comme quelqu’un apprécie notre travail. Se plaignent que cette, se plaignent. Seuls les polissoirs à chaussures obtenir toutes les louanges. Et ces serpents ne semblent jamais se faire prendre. Parfois, je me demande à quoi bon?

Vissez le tout et tout le monde..

Like and unlike

Since the boom of facebook (FB), many new words have surfaced. Apart from unfriend, another interesting FB term is unlike. I’m getting very confused with the new features of FB, when you seem to be able to like virtually everything from status updates, photos, comments, to links and even pages of random stuff.

Liking something is an easy thing to do. Simply press on the button like. Nevertheless, unliking something is quite the contrary. I am usually quite good at exercising self-control when it comes to adding unnecessary applications, joining fan pages etc. but somehow I was tempted to pressing like for some Disney crap thingy which required me to like them before being able to view the video. After viewing the video, I suddenly had the obsessive-compulsion to unlike it.

After a long search for the unlike button, I simply gave up and googled  How do you unlike something on facebook?” and there you go. Apparently I’m not the only one who didn’t know how to do so. Hah.